Ughhhhh So Hugry

Today...what to say about today...I succeeded in my goal for getting below 500 cal for today...all I had was 2 cups of ramen (420 calories), one at lunch and one at dinner. But I also starved. And I am still starving. In fact, it feels like my stomach is imploding right now...I had a little heart burn earlier, no doubt from the lack of food in my belly. I'm also staying up all night which makes my body need more energy. So imma let it burn some fat, I got no problem with that.

Back To Counting!!

Guess what, guys!!! I'm posting this from my brand new Acer Notebook PC!!! That's right, I won the pie eating contest, but at what price, you ask? Well, I wasn't really counting, but my roommate had my back. We ate one pie as fast as we could (thank goodness) and he reported to me later that the pie was 400 csalories PER SERVING...there were five servings. Plus, since I had already given up counting for the day, I kind of indulged...as in 2 brats (lets just assume here that I wasn't counting calories), a half a plate of potato wedges, 2 funnel cakes with a mountain of powdered sugar, ice cream, and fried chicken. Now in my defense, I was not eating this just to eat because i wasn't counting. you think if I had not cared about what I was eating, I would be able to tell you I ate it? No, my purpose for gorging myself was so that my stomach would be stretched out for the contest which I thought would be a lot more than one pie. Anyway, as I said yesterday, I was WELL above 1000 cal. probably well above 5 or 6000, which concerns me, because if I could lose control that fast, what am I in for when I start eating regularly again? I suppose this has become the new norm. At least I'll be thin. If i could lose weight. I feel like I should be seeing changes already but that's just me being impatient. I really know better than to anticipate because anticipation breeds disappointment, and disappointment breeds failure. As I promised, I went back to counting today, but I'll save that for another post. This one's kinda long.

Ok, so today I started to feel the first of the hunger pangs that accompany what I am doing. Luckily when they came, I had not reached the cap for my calorie intake for the day. I am still below my 500 for the day. Today I started the day off with an apple (50 cal). Then I got back from my classes and was feeling quite hungry, so I had the other half of that chicken strip from yesterday (another 105). I felt a little hungry later on when the chicken strip ran out, so I cooked up a little cup of ramen noodles and only ate half of it then and half of it when I got hungry as dinnertime rolled around. That cup of ramen was 210 for dinner and lunch which totals at 365. then, in a moment of indulgence, I opened my can of lean turkey spam and ate a half a serving which is about as big as your thumb, and that was 40 calories capping me off at 405. I feel this is a good time to tell you that I am going into this lifestyle cold turkey from averaging 4000-5000+ a day. I have dropped to a tenth of my caloric intake. I plan to do some sit-ups or push-ups here in a minute, I might post again in regards to whether or not I actually did them.

Very glad to say that today, I held to my goal a lot better. I didn't eat anything until noon, at which I ate an apple and half a chicken strip. Totaled up, that comes to 155 calories. I also ate a few airheads again after lunch passed and I was in class. This came to 180, which would put me at 335 calories total so far. I just ate 2 more apples before posting this, which comes to about 105 ish calories, topping me off at 440 calories for the day. A massive 60 calories under 500, which meets my ideal goal. I can rest easily tonight knowing that I might just succeed in my endeavors.